“The song is not a song”

“The song is not a song”

There is a song that I wanted to write
A simple song that comes from my hearth
Its words are hidden within me
And it doesn’t have a good melody

Its rhythm is the sound of my mind
Its meaning is undefined
It keeps on playing anytime I like
This is the music of my life

I don’t care if they don’t hear it
I don’t care if they don’t understand
This song is all I need
To breathe and become a better man

Someday this song will be finished
And its stanza will be a memory
And as I recall and relinquish
Every high notes is not a tragedy

Because I learned in every note I sing
That’s what this song always offering
And I thank God that I keep on believing
That this was not a music of suffering

This song that I’m going to write
Is the simple song of my life
Its words is what I am going to be
And I hope it will have a good memory

This song is not a song
For it doesn’t have a tone
And it can’t be sung by others
Cause only I can understands its letters

Though sometimes I hate this song
Because the refrain was a bit too long
And there are off beats and long pause
So I ask, when will I sing the chorus?

But even though that is the case
I always believe that this song is a gift
For I learned to love only by His grace
And by this song I will become one of His sheep


mabuhay!!!

“I know”

“I know”

I know why an angel needs to fly in the sky now

I guess I learn how to tie my aglet somehow

Why the curtains need to slide when it rains

And when it rains the leaves sway

I know now why a diamond cannot be broken

His strength comes from his cuts within

His reflection was more than a dream

Now I know what you mean

I know spiders are meant to die someday

His web would be his only remnants

Where a beautiful cherry blossoms sway

Silently spreading to the world her fragrance

I know now that this was never my story

It’s yours, and I am only here to show you

That within my soul I love you contentedly

And I prayed that you will love me too.

mabuhay!!!

"To write Love in her arms"

"To write Love in her arms"

I wish I could
I wish I had
I wish I called
I wish I have

I wish I stood
I wish I shout
I wish I hold
I wish I hug

I wish I stand
I wish I follow
I wish I stay
I wish I shadow

I wish I protect
I wish I cover
I wish I seek
I wish I remember

I wish I sing
I wish I stare
I wish I dance
I wish I care

There's nothing more than I ask
But just to write Love in her arms
I hope I can make it until I last
Oh!!! God.. Please..

Wish me luck.

Please let me love her to the extent of your goodwill.

mabuhay!!!

"Above"

"Above"


someday you'll grow up..

and i will see you fly..

and when you fly above me..

then you will see the colors of my wings...

my wings are made of old newspaper

with lots of old stories and jokes

you may wonder how I got here

but that's the only thing I hold

old songs and unsung melodies

of friendships and their memories

lost love and unknown harmony

who power up my wings of gold

but your wings are far greater than mine

so fly high my little kite

extend your strings up to the sky

and don't look back when you wave your...



goodbye..


protect yourself...


mabuhay!!!

"no words"

"no words"

i made my father cry

like pouring diamond in his eye

i forgot his smile

i guess i miss my...

"tatay"

mabuhay!!!

"Two pages"

"Two pages"

As I think of you

I don’t what to do

So please give me a clue

That say you love me too

…

And if I die one day

I will gladly say

That before my life end

I loved a loving friend

mabuhay!!!

Unspoken

Unspoken

I was a transcendence soul

Conjugal mind of abyss

Lost in deserted realms of ghoul

Insane rationality amidst

Collected painful memory

Havoc thyself

Crooked sanity

Weakening health

Bathed in frustration

Bitter joy of surrender

Deafening intuition

Soulless forever

A straightening rainbow

Lighted my trance

This curve of sorrow

Became illuminated dance

Surgical word

Operated my mind

She fixes my orb

To remember my rhyme

Thank you.

mabuhay!!!

“Lost and hope to be found”

“Lost and hope to be found”

Let my path be lighted by your love

For my life was lost in indistinct dark

Be my hopeful wish of dreams that I have

Magnify my heart with your undying spark

Shower my soul with your guiding spirit

Release it from the shadows of earthly sadness

Let my pride and anger melt to your holy heat

Let this lost soul feel your eternal forgiveness

mabuhay!!!

"freeman"

"freeman"

i love the fish that swims independently

in the rivers of knowledge and history

he challenge the upstream of humanity

he proved that illusion is not an impossibility

he conquered men not by greater knowledge

nor by brute force and emancipating verge

he just dive the depth of truth and emerge

for great are those who choose to submerge

he believes that to love is to be bait

to compensate the hatred of human fate

he lose his life to give them faith

he died for loving a cunning state

crippled by silent anger and greed

shed his blood for their joyful deed

he love a soul until his heart bleed

for to love to him is the only way to live

everybody believes that they understand

that all was done according to his plan

but what if he is not the one

and just an ordinary and loving freeman

mabuhay!!!

"Girlish"

"Girlish"

I like him when he smile even though his sad

I like him when he fools around just to make me laugh

I like him when we walk and protected me like a queen

I like him when we talk and treated me like a teen

I like him when he hides his feelings though it is obviously shows

I like him when I ask him he just melts like snow

I like him when he just stand and look at me fascinatingly

I like him when I look at him he always try not to gaze at me

I like him when he just laughs when things get worst

I like him when he pay he didn’t speak of diamond purse

I like him when he waits for me like I am a celebrity

I like him when I arrived he just smiled at me contentedly

I like him when he just jokes about what I’ve done wrong

I like him when he just hear my reasons without any question

I like him when he texts me sweet noting before he sleeps

I like him when I wake up his name in my inbox always appear

I like him though he is too stupid to know

There are things I like about him but I hate to show

If you didn’t say that you love me

I feel like things will end differently

I just can’t wait forever like a stone patiently

And I feel like your gentleness can not contain me

How sad I can’t witness the sunset with you

Sometimes things didn’t come up like you view


But you know what thank you for loving me
I treasure it as one of the best memory

mabuhay!!!

“Ignored”

“Ignored”


I know her since college

She always read a book and looks silent

Listening to her mp4 as she turns the page

While surrounded by her loving friends


She didn’t care about me

She doesn’t know that I am watching her

I am silently half dead already

To her perspective I am not there


Though we are classmate in some subjects

And I smile at her every time we cross

She just ignores me and rejects

And just smile back for charitable cause


Years passed and I forgot myself

Don’t know what happen but I lose

I forgot the feeling but not the girl

I just can’t forget a no ordinary rose


She is the type that blooms everywhere

A seed that was from heaven’s care

That can grow above the water

But mostly she just hides under


So I try to forget her

God knows how hard I tried

I am more than never

And I am dying inside


I know I am not enough for her

And I am too small so I run away

Until one day in the midst of blare

She just came along my way


Does God plays tricks on me?

Why does He makes our star collides?

And if this another dream in fantasy

Please don’t wake me up until I died


To walk with her is my dream

To talk to her is my wish

I keep on loving her again and again

For she will complete my bucket list


mabuhay!!!

“Goddess”

“Goddess”

Please hear me out now
And believe to what I’m saying
This is the revolutionary bow
Of the heart who secretly loving

Please forget about your doubt
And believe to what I declare
This is a man’s dying shout
Before he slip to a broken stair

No more regrets now
No more pain
Even though I fall down
Just to love again

I will keep on believing
And keep on praying
That somewhere out there
There is a place that we can be together

A place where time is not real
Where we can sit and talk the whole day
And the only thing that matter is what we feel
And it doesn’t matter what they say

Come with me my lady
My goddess of my universe
Please sing for me sweetly
My sweet maiden blaze

Take me with your arms
And fly me with your kite
Curse me with your charms
And take away my fright

Let’s walk under the sun
And circle around the moon
Hold my hand as we run
And we will be there soon

I will never let you go
Even if I lose my hand
But if you want to
I will wholeheartedly understand

I will always be there for you
No matter how far you are
My love will see you through
And you’re always be my shooting star

mabuhay!!!

she

she

Someone ask me, ^ how do you define love?

So I answered, love is.., then I paused

And I look to where her location

Then I smile and look at the sky

I was silent for awhile...

So what is love he asks?

Love is simply is..,

Then she just came

Our eyes speaks,

I sigh^

She!

mabuhay!!!

“Ss”

“Ss”

The sun may not shine someday

And the world might end

They may have block our way

But my love to you will always remain


Rain may not fall

And rivers may have run dry

Even if I crawl

For your love, I will learn how to fly


The sky may have divided in two

And we may have fallen apart

If the earth crush too

I save you with my heart


I know that it is a dream

Or just my mere hallucination

But I love you more than the same

I love you with no question


I wish I could find the answer

But wish are hard to come true

Even there are no questions to remember

I recall the answer was always you


I don’t want to act tough

Nor pretend that I am great

I just pray for infinite luck

So I always keep you safe


The sun will shine to us someday

And we will make our own end

Though they will try to block our way

Our love will still remain

mabuhay!!!

Chocolate’s Fellowship

Chocolate’s Fellowship

We wake up early on a Saturday

We smile and hello to know if we’re all okay

We silently travel as we go our way

Lingering the taste of the day


Then the climb suddenly started

We know that it is hard though no one said it

So we let our strong hearts to speak and said

I will not give up the climb until it ended


As we reach the top and lay on the peak

Our hearts find what we longed and seek

We conquer the mountain that’s what we speak

We conquer ourselves that’s what we think


Hurray! As we enjoying the view

Cheers to those who fail you

Smile to the path that’s hard to pass through

While enjoying the smell of mountain dew


Thanks to those who help us here

To a friend who is always there

Who shows how much he really care

To you kuya, I thank you now and forever


It was indeed a great climb

A memory that we cannot buy

That can be a savor for a lifetime

Through hardships and trial


This is was I guess our first fellowship

Or a date in the mountain with chocolate

I wish like this I could call it

That in the mountain we have our first date


mabuhay!!!

Dear Chocolate;

Dear Chocolate;


I don’t know what you feel for me

And I don’t know what you are thinking

I don’t know what I wanted you to see

But can you please see what I am feeling

I know that we are on a different box

And we lived for a different cause

I know that I don’t wear socks

But can you please put yourself on my shoes

I never wanted to fall for your sweetness

I never expected to fall at all

I am just a victim of your kindness

Victim of my heart and soul

I still recall our first encounter

So much of you make joy and laughter

But so much of me make things bitter

So I wonder how I can make it better

I wanted to try to be with you

To celebrate life and to show my feelings

To hope that our love will see us through

To feel love as a human beings

But our boundaries become stronger

Our box had become harder

And there are others that I need to conquer

Whom far bigger and greater

Oh chocolate I feel so weak

I don’t have any assurance that I seek

And every day it makes me sick

Feels like my life has a leak

The aroma of my life is losing out

Because there is a hole above my bottle

I wish that you would be my cap

And in your arms I will cradle

I wish that it will last forever

I wish that it will never end

I ask this to “Above” oh God my “Father”

And to all the angels up there in heaven

Help me to tell her how much I love her

Please tell her how much I really care

Send my words not just by letters

But echoes that sing love and whispers

And if my word cannot reach her

Put it on a bottle and flow it to the river

If somebody opens it, it will explode like firecracker

And my words will be spread like thunder

And if words and letters are not enough

And you didn’t believe to what I said

Don’t be shock when your name become my blood

That’s the only thing that flows from my feet up to my head

My hearth pumps your name
Your memory is what I breathe
I guess I will never be the same
I dream of you even though I am not asleep

Love alcohol

mabuhay!!!

"Daughters"

"Daughters"
By
Jose Andres Mabini

Do you know why mothers always say; “Don’t talk to strangers” when we are young? You may say, so that we can’t be kidnap or can’t be deceived easily, And also because mothers wanted us to be safe all the time. That some strangers can’t be trusted and can do harm to us. So in order to avoid them we must not talk to them. It easy to understand if that is our mothers’ reasons for saying that. What if there is something else, something else that we may not understand when we are young. A reason that been hidden in that context. Don’t talk to stranger, think about it again. And when you do that let me tell you a simple story. I know is not a good one but this is all that I got.

This story is all about a girl name Jem, she was five yrs old when her mother told her not to talk to strangers. And so she kept it in her mind and believed that something bad will happen if she talks to someone she didn’t know. When she turns to six yrs old her mother bring her to school. She become more aware about everything and asks too many questions. But since she can’t talk to anybody she only asks her mother. And her mother always gives the best answer in the world. I guess so, because when she in 6th grade she is nos. 1 in her class. Young Jem was so competitive, honest and eager to learn. Her motivation in life was all thanks to her loving mother.

But sometimes in life there are things that happen purposely to make us stronger. When she turns in high school her mother got sick and need to go abroad for treatment. Jem was so sad when she found out that her mother was moving away from them. At the same time she was also confused about the changes that happening in her life. The sadness and confusion gave Jem a hard time in high school. She never felt anything like this before. That is why her hearth always longed for her mother sweet gentle smile. She always thought just one smile from her mother can take away all her sadness and confusion. Time pass so fast that she never heard anything about her mother. His father was busy about work and everything. She thinks that his father was working too hard to earn enough money for her mother’s medication. That is why she never had a clue about what happen to her mother that time. She is just praying that someday her mother would come back and smile at her again. That is the only reason why she keeps on moving, that someday her mother would be back and she must not fail her.

High school graduation had finally arrived, she ask his father if her mother can come to her graduation. But her father said that her mother wanted to see her, but she can’t make it at the moment, but rest assured that she will always see her no matter what. By hearing that Jem was so happy but sad also thinking that maybe her mother was too sick so that she can’t come to her graduation day. The graduation ceremony started and she becomes the salutatorian, that time she thinks that her mother would be disappointed because she never become the valedictorian. And when the medals are need to put on to her neck she was surprise from what she see saw. Her father have someone with him, she never recognize it yet but when they come closer to her, it was clearly from her heart that it was her mother. Her mother put her medal to her and embraces her with a smile. She was static and started to cry. Her tear starts flowing like jewelry in her eye. And her parents were so proud for her.

After the graduation her mother stayed in their house for about one month and died. She was very lovely when she died Jem said while narrating her story to us that time. That time we are on a same club in college. She found out that her mother got bone cancer and had only four years to live. His father said that her mother want it to be secret so that she can continue her study without hindrances. That the moving away thing was part of her mother’s plan. And little she didn’t know that her mother is always watching her. She is just a few blocks from their house and watches her every day in almost four years of her life. Her mother cooks her meal and everything and his father bring it to their house. And her mother got all her pictures every time she got an award from school. Her mother was always there as her father tells her. She is just hiding herself so that she won’t be out focus from her study. That is also the reason why his father was too busy because he got two houses needs to check on to.

After five years Jem got married and have a beautiful little daughter. She calls her next after to her late mother Jana. When Jana was five she tells also the exact line “Don’t talk to strangers. When Jana turns six years old she brought her to school. Like her Jana has a lot of question to ask and she give the best answer in the world also. I guess so, Because Jana become nos. 1 in her class too. She always accompanies Jana in any activity. Up until J.S prom she was there also dancing with Jana, Jana’s classmates and teachers. Sometimes I ask her why you need to come to Jana’s acquaintances. Jana is too old to have someone to look for her though. Sometimes I ask question without thinking about what I said hoping to have a good conversation. But everybody needs a friend even there are old she just said to me. I was shock after what she said. She knows that I was in a state of shock so she just ask question to me. Do you ever wonder why your mother tells you “Don’t talk to stranger” she asks. So that I can get out of trouble I replied to her. Yeah maybe that the typical answer she said. Out of confusion to what she said, so I ask her so why you said to Jana not to talk to strangers yourself as her mother, I ask. She smiled like cherry blossom that time then replied to me. My mother always said that to me also, I guess I just copied it to her. But before my mother died she said simple words I won’t forget in my life. These are what she said, as your mother I want to witness you to grow for good or for bad. That doesn’t really matter. I just want to be the first one to know your story of life. I don’t want to hear it to someone else. I don’t want secondhand information. I am sorry that I need to leave you for four years in your life and never heard your story every day. But you know what I will always treasure in my whole entire life. Your stories you told when you are at five years old. You can’t even tell what you are saying that time. I am happy that you tell it first to me. And our secret will be secret forever. While she was saying that Jem was crying. Then Jem said to me maybe that’s the reason why my mother say “Don’t talk to strangers” so that my mother will be the first one to hear my life story. After that I never ask again ever.

Years past and Jana are now graduating in high school. Jem was so popular in Jana’s school. She was called the best mother in the world by other students. I think that would be Jana’s friends and classmates so I don’t give any special attention. But I was startled when Jana gave the valedictorian speech. Because in the very end of Jana’s speech this was all she said. And lastly I would like to thank my best friend who would talk to me every day just to know what happen to my life. To my best mentor thank you for sharing me your knowledge. To my mother whom I love so much that becomes my best friend and mentor at the same time by loving me as a mother. This day is not just for me but for the best mother of the world. To my dearest and loving mom this is for you. I love you so much. Our secret will be secret forever. The crowd was in a great applause I never heard such noise in my entire life. And the most shocking part is they all looking at us. Not really in me but to Jem. I am sitting next to the best mother in the world that this all people love. Thinking about it makes my tears fall unconsciously. Then I hear someone’s voice talking to me. Why are you crying? This is the first time I see you cry Jem said to me. Her voice was like music in my ear that makes me come back to reality. I can’t help it I was so proud to become the husband of the best mother of the world. And why are you not crying the speech was all for you I said. She smiled with little tears in her eye. Nah I already read it, and I also teach her to recite that speech. So that is the reason why every time our Jana makes a speech you never cry I said exasperatingly. All along you know all her speech from the start. You know how much I try not to cry in all that celebration I said. She just smile at me and kiss me. I guess their secret will remain forever.

Then she hugs me like she was just my daughter.

mabuhay!!!

Fight

Fight

I faced some trial before
And it feels so alone
I just want to get home
But when you come everything change
I feel so strong when you hug me for so long
And now you’re gone I’m here again
And it feels like it’s the end

Co’z my gun is my life
And my sword is my sight
But I don’t wanna fight
When you’re not in my side
Co’z winning is all about you


So what will I gonna do?
Co’z without you I’m out of view
I don’t see my life I don’t have a sight
So please come back I just cant fight

Though you’re gone I’m still be here
Hoping someday that you’ll be home again
I don’t wanna give up
But life is a fight so I moving on this life.

Co’z my gun is my life
And my sword is my sight
But I don’t wanna fight
When you’re not in my side
Co’z winning is all about you

Co’z you’re my life
And you’re my sight
But I will fight even your not in my life
Co’z living is all about you

mabuhay!!!

Flame

Flame

I don’t wanna be alone
I just wanna go back home
When everything is losing in the flame
Things were gonna be alright
If we gonna hold on tight
We’ll fight till the end of our lives

People were starving
Some were crying
For all the tense that they were feeling
Everyone was praying
Co’z who knows whose dying
For all the things they encountered and suffered

I don’t wanna be alone
I just wanna go back home
When everything is losing in the flame
Things were gonna be alright
If we gonna hold on tight
We’ll fight till the end of our lives

Life is so short
So make it worthy
So stop the flame and argument in our country
If there is the man that who could understand
The true meaning of peace was in our heart hmm hmm.

Lalala la, lalala lala, lalala lala
La la lala lala lala.

mabuhay!!!

Love Not To

Love Not To

Love not to hurt
nor to hate and regret
But love and love, and love again
for love Is to understand beyond any pain

Love not to impress
but to express
not just to express
but to invest;
For time has ending
and Life is fading

Love not to sacrifice
nor to say "I love you" and goodbyes;
But love fOr your own happiness
not for others interest

Love not to have someone else
but loVe to become someone else;
Not just to those who love you
but for those you love too

LovE not to dance till death
Nor to have someone you can sleep with;
But love to give yoU reason to woke up with
and reason to sing on and live.

mabuhay!!!

I They He She We

I They He She We

I will dwell in the dark
So they can't see
I will leave no mark
So they can't look after me

They will not notice
And they can not discover
They exist not to exist
And they forget what they remember

He captures your heart
And he dwell in darkness
He is now free to start
And he give you pain and sadness

She have her story
And she keeps her drama
She just keeps her sorry
And that's her denouement

We try to live
And we try so hard
We are just simply naive
And also haphazard

mabuhay!!!

In my own

In my own

I will hold my pen
I will follow a dream
And I will be seen
In my own news and magazine

I will speak my mind
I will give my sign
And I will have my rhyme
In my own time

I will ignore some bottles
I will try not to tell
That I will settle
In my own fairy tale

I will earn my test
I will work my best
And I will not rest
In my own mess

I will be happy
I will not be lonely
And I will keep you with me
In my own eternity

mabuhay!!!